Humility
In a word, humility is a beast, and God seemingly has an infinite number of ways in keeping your boy humble.
Today, I was looking at a website and noticed that they had a devotional section. I was immediately like, "Aww yeah! Let me check this out and see what’s going on!" I saw that it was being headed up by a good friend of mine, and that gave me a good bit of comfort. Then, given that I know a good number of people who had a hand in putting the site together, and them knowing that I write devotions too, my flesh immediately started to rise up. My flesh started to say, "Why didn’t they holla at me about putting my devotions up there? Mine are just as good!" and so on. Needless to say, I wanted to start beating my chest and cry foul play, especially when I had gotten an email about submitting content for the site, but only asking for editorial/reviews/news type pieces (of which I could care less about these days).
Then it hit me. I had to remember my last blog post and the admonishment I had given to the HHH community. Simply put, I needed to humble myself, put myself in check and realize that they asked my boy to do it, and not me. It was their decision to make, and not mine. Plus, who am I anyway? I’m not ordained or anything of the sort; I’m just a layman training his gift and trying to teach the Bible. The more I thought about it, I realized that it was God’s call and not theirs. Given the circumstances, I’ve already dedicated myself to my studies and will already be cutting back on what I do with the site (that’s my decision, by the way, in reference to a previous blog entry), so I wouldn’t be able to commit to providing content for another site anyway. After that, I felt pretty low and humbled before the Almighty because I knew that it was definitely His call and His circumstances. I repented for my jealousy, covetousness, anger, and pride because I was absolutely in the wrong. If the Lord wills, it’ll happen in His time; and, if not, He’s still God and I’ll just have to be content with what He’s given me stewardship over, nahmean?!
Blessings. G&P.
I appreciate you so much for writing this man. Amen!
Thanks bro. I almost didn’t write it, but I was in a blogging mood and felt that it was worth sharing with the world at large. Sometimes I just feel the need to be transparent and accountable (at least to myself) and this was one of those times. At the very least, I hope that it helps other people see the need for looking at things from God’s perspective instead of getting bent out of shape when things don’t necessarily go our way.
lj.
Hey Fam, good post bro! Thanks for being transparent!