What to Do?
After tonight’s classes at church, I was having a conversation with my pastor and one of the deacons (who teaches my Greek class) and we were talking about the increased workload that I’ll have when the new year starts. I’m not sure if I’ve discussed it here before, but I’ll likely be picking up 1st year Hebrew alongside 2nd year Greek, while still doing pastor’s ministry workshop classes among other things. With all of that, I realized that I need to address what I’m going to do with Trailblazin Ministries.
Here’s a glimpse at what I’m facing. I’m looking at the current pace of my studies here at Trailblazin Ministries and it has taken me 1.5 years to get through a rather small book of the Bible. With that, throw in the fact that, up to today, I’ve only done 80 devotions in that time, which averages out to a little over one devotion per week. That doesn’t include the Bible studies, podcasts, music reviews or anything else I do with the site. Quite frankly, by my own standards, an average of one devotion per week isn’t a lot; when I started off the year, it was my goal to do at least two or three devotions per week, but apparently that didn’t happen. Now, when you add on the workload that I’m about to add, will the rate of devotions suffer even more? Will it be a single devotion every other week?!
If I’m honest with myself, I know that it’s going to take a lot out of me to make the most of my studies, but at the same time I don’t want the website to suffer because I realize that it’s a ministry in and of itself that is helping others grow in their spiritual walks. In my mind, a website is only as good as the content that is contained, and I’m the kind of person that hates to keep a website stale. It bugs me to no end when I don’t have enough time to study and get a devotion up because I feel like the website isn’t doing what it’s supposed to or that I’m not doing my "job" well enough.
The bottom line, at least here, is that I realize that the time I devote to the website will decrease as my studies increase. From there, the question becomes: what do I do? Do I let the website just sit stale and update it whenever I can? Do I try to squeeze in the extra time to at least remain at the level I’m at now, and probably wear myself out in the process? Or do I toy with the idea of shutting down the site entirely while I pursue my studies and let the Lord lead from there? The one thing that I do know is that this site is a resource to believers all over the world, and it’ll even serve as a benefit, probably more so once I’m done with my training because I’ll be better equipped to serve. I just need to figure out what to do with it while I’m in the heart of my training.
Right now, I don’t know what I’m going to do. At the very least, I’m going to finish out the year strong with the podcast and attempt to finish the James devotion series. In the meantime, I think I’ll seek some wisdom from my pastor and others and see what they think I should do. The one thing I know for sure is that I don’t want to neglect the gift that I’ve been given, but at the same time I want to give my best at all times. So, I guess I’ll leave this as a rant and see where things go from here…
