What if the messy middle isn’t a detour… but the destination?
In a world obsessed with polished perfection and definitive answers, I’m choosing a different path: sharing my life and learnings in process, not just the picture perfect outcome.
If you’re looking for a guru, that’s not me.
But if you’re looking for honest conversations, soul-led detours, and spiritual breadcrumbs scattered along the way… you’re home.
This post is a continuation—and a reflection—on the journey I’ve been sharing in my reintroduction series. I’ve talked about:
- Why I’m starting over (again) and building this YouTube channel
- How my faith has deepened and simplified
- How fitness became a spiritual practice
- Why I love tech, but no longer worship productivity
But even with all of that… I’m still figuring this out. And I’m okay with that.
From Certainty to Curiosity
There was a time in my life when certainty felt essential. I needed the answers and needed them now.
In my early faith, certainty equaled strength. In business, clarity meant confidence. In content creation, direction meant momentum.
But lately, I’ve realized that living with open hands… asking questions without rushing to answers… isn’t weakness. It’s wisdom.
Because in the Aquarian Age, it’s not about following rigid formulas or dogma. It’s about embodied alignment. It’s about living your questions and trusting that what you need will reveal itself along the way. Or, in Christian speak, I’m trusting the Holy Spirit to guide me.
What Human Design Taught Me
It wasn’t until I learned Human Design that I learned why I felt the need for so much certainty.
If you take a look at my chart, you will see a few things, all of which had me yearning for certainty in my unaligned state.
It starts with my open G-Center… one of the key insights from Human Design that’s shaped my spiritual growth. It’s that diamond-shape hub in the middle of my chart. This is where our identity of self is expressed. It’s all about having a fixed direction and consistent behavior. With it open, I’m not wired to have a fixed sense of direction… I’m designed to flow, being open-minded and adaptable. But in my unaligned state, I was always searching for purpose, direction, and belonging.
Then I have an undefined Head & Ajna (the two at the top). All that dogma & certainty I seeking? This is where it was all coming from. Because I was so out of balance, I had to have the answers, even if they conflicted or didn’t make sense. Instead, I needed to embrace my ability to be a sponge and allow myself to be open to different ways of thinking. That’s exactly what I’ve embraced. And the more I release the need for certainty, the more the dots connect themselves. But I’m not holding any of it tightly, knowing it might change in the future.
Human Design gave me the big picture of who I was. It showed me where I was out of alignment and fighting against myself. And now that I’m finding better alignment in my life, I’m better able to move from living in certainty to embracing curiosity.
Side note: If you want to know more about how you’re designed, click here to get your free Human Design chart. Not only will you get a chart, you’ll get a free email series introducing you to the world of Human Design.
A Recap of the Journey So Far
That said, this whole series has been about pulling back the curtain and showing you where I’m at in this new chapter of life. It’s been about honesty, not expertise.
Sure, I might feel like I’m starting over, but this is simply the continuation of the path I’ve been traveling my entire life. The only difference now is it feels more soul-aligned than it ever has in times past.
I’m no longer afraid to talk about how my faith has shifted from what can be seen as a rules-based religion to a deeper, more relational Yeshua-centered spirituality. My relationship with God feels more personal and loving, and less like I need to get it right all the time. But the one thing that hasn’t changed is my desire to look more like him with each passing day.
Even my relationship with fitness has changed. While I still desire to be as fit as possible, its no longer for aesthetics and performance. It’s about being a good steward of the temple I’ve been blessed to embody and using it as a conduit for divine connection.
And I still love technology, but it’s no longer something I idolize, particularly in the pursuit of productivity. Now it’s all about using tech in ways that support peace, alignment, and joy.
These weren’t polished TED Talks. They were honest reflections. And this post is no different.
The Beauty of Being Unfinished
I don’t have all the answers. And the truth is… I never will. And I’m okay with that.
What I do have is curiosity. A willingness to explore. A desire to align my life with love, truth, presence, and purpose.
That’s the heart of this space: documenting spiritual evolution and soul-aligned living in the Aquarian Age.
I’m not here to be a guru. I’m not here to teach from the mountaintop. I’m just a fellow traveler sharing the path I’m walking. I’m sharing the messy middle of my life’s experiments so you can partake as you see fit. No polished outcome. No illusion of having it all together. Just truth in progress.
So if you’re figuring things out too… if you’re navigating shifts in your faith, your body, your work, or your sense of purpose… I see you.
You’re not behind.
You’re not alone.
You’re right on time.
What’s Next From Here?
Now that this intro series is complete, I’ll be diving deeper into all of these themes in future videos and posts. You can expect content about:
- Navigating the Aquarian Age with intention
- Exploring embodiment and nervous system regulation
- Sharing tools for aligned living (without the pressure of perfection)
- Reflecting on spiritual experiences, synchronicities, and soul growth
Some content might be raw reflections. Others might be deep dives into books or practices I’m exploring. But all of them will come from a place of curiosity, presence, and authenticity.
Let’s Walk Together
I don’t have it all figured out… and I’m not trying to.
What I am trying to do is live a life of alignment, integrity, and soul. If you’re on a similar path, I’d love for us to walk it together.
If this resonates, come join me in The Living Room—a free community space where we explore embodiment, spirituality, and aligned living in the Aquarian Age.
Until next time… stay grounded, stay curious, and give yourself permission not to know.